I’m letting you in. That loud noise you hear is me taking a very deep breath. 
This is scary to tell you about the big decision I’ve made for this year.
You see, I was brought up in Boston. We’re very provincial here. What that means is always having a nice façade on. Not let others see anything that could possibly be seen as less than perfect.
Can you relate to that?
I was brought up to be the perfect, well-behaved little girl and even called “Miss Kate”. I’ve carried that role well into my adult life. The thing is that I don’t want to be “perfect” anymore. And the truth is I probably never was and never will be. It’s an awful lot of pressure and weight to carry around.
But, I did it. Or, tried to do it. For a long time.
After college, I was a flight attendant. It was very competitive. They hired 1 out of every 800 applicants, the requirement was to smile, be friendly and look pretty.
I did it.
During my days of corporate, I did my best to be perfect, too. That took a lot of work. There were some days that I felt so totally stressed out that it was hard to breathe.
As an entrepreneur, wanting to be “perfect” made me question what I was doing, delay things because they might not be good enough and be afraid to stand on my own dime.
Now, I’m letting go. I want you to know who I really am.
Allow me to introduce myself.
I have a dry sense of humor that not everyone gets. My mother says the “Beeders” sense of humor is like the abominable snowman, there are traces of it, but you’re never quite sure if it really exists”.
I’m spiritual and believe in some kind of higher source. I don’t know exactly what it is –but knowing it’s out there makes me feel safe. The Laws of Attraction have guided me well with my business and they are my commandments for my day-to-day life.
I care deeply about my clients and their success (and it really pisses me off to see coaches who don’t).
I have failed more times than I care to think about.
I have embarrassed myself more times than I care to remember.
I have done more stupid stuff than I’d like to admit.
(Can you resonate with that?)
I love to learn and then share what I’ve learned with others. If I could clone myself, one of me would be running my business and the other would be learning through mentors, seminars, classes, courses and books. If only I could do this simultaneously- that would be a dream come true!
I am on this journey along with you to create both a business and life that I love. I may be steps ahead, but I am right here to guide you in spirit.
Fair warning, as you get to know me, you’ll occasionally hear me swear, tell a stupid joke and talk fast when I’m excited. That’s who I am.
This year, I will be more vulnerable, imperfect and open with you. I will let you see my authentic self and my imperfections. This quote says it all. It inspires me to move forward and let go.
“There is a crack, a crack in everything.
That’s how the light gets in.”
~Leonard Cohen
Be Brilliant,
P.S. Who are you? Please share in the blog comments and let me get to know you.
Kate-
You vulnerability is powerful and inspirational. This willingness to be open and true will create a whole world of newness for you.
Thank you for sharing.
Jen Karofsky
Thank you for that, Jen 🙂
thanks so much for letting me know, Jen 🙂
What a beautiful post! Perfect is so boring! And just scares us all away. Here’s to a New Year in which we all get to be our own unique imperfect selves. 🙂
yes to that, Sherry 🙂
Kate,
Thank you for sharing. Everything you said resonated with me. I have always strived for perfection at a very young age. I always felt that my parents needed one daughter who did the “Right thing”. After many years fighting an eating disorder, having a child out of wedlock and dating a married man, then I realized now at age 54, oops I am not perfect. I am tired of being perfect and ready to take more good risks with people who can support me if it does not go the way it should. I am ready to show my true self and speak my truths in love. You rock it. I cannot wait to meet you in person someday. Tammi
Awww, thanks Tammi. I look forward to meeting, too 🙂 Thank you for sharing.
Loved this! Thanks for sharing Kate.
thank you so much Stephanie 🙂
Now Kate Kate Kate Beeders that was not anything i would hide in the closet. Actually that is very good!!!!. Way to go you are God’s little precious girl.
thank you Violet 🙂
Kate…I have no problem understanding where you’re coming from. For sure, I was there!
However, with the input of some of my trusted mentors, I’ve learned (for myself) that I am perfect…in that I am the perfect Donny Rothbardt.
However, that includes when I’m being imperfect.
A play on words? Maybe! But it works extremely well for me and my clients.
Especially as a professional life & Spiritual coach, I assert being the “perfect me” is a boost, not to the ego, but to my authentic self. Self-esteem & self-worth.
Namaste
thanks for sharing. I believe we are all perfectly imperfect and perfectly imperfect, Donny 🙂
Congratulations Kate on this wonderful post. Loved your words:
“I have failed more times than I care to think about.
I have embarrassed myself more times than I care to remember.
I have done more stupid stuff than I’d like to admit…”
In celebration of our human imperfections 🙂
thank you, Ruth, for sharing 🙂